Humility…

Humility is a modest or low view of one’s own importance; humbleness. The quality or state of not thinking you are better than other people: the quality or state of being humble.

Let’s look at the Bible and scripture for teaching on this..
Romans 12:3 For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you.

I have always struggled with humility and with pride. Pride is the absence of humility. As a woman, I struggle with the battle of comparison between other wives, and mothers. I also struggle with this invisible bar I set for myself to accomplish EVERYTHING but can never seem to reach it.
I think to myself, I have Jesus in me I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, then I plow ahead on my own filled to the rim with pride. The crazy thing is I can never see pride in myself but I can see it a mile away in other people….right? Or is that jealousy in me that comes from pride? Is this jealousy caused by comparing myself to the best qualities in others, that I cannot seem to repeat in my daily life?
Admitting to you that I am prideful, jealous, arrogant and judgmental is scary at best, but I have a stronger desire to want freedom than to hang on to all of that. I want to be humble. I want to be free of the battle to be the best. I long for and want to live a Holy life but not a perfect life.

We teach our children how to lose well in games. We say, “there is always going to be someone who can beat you, someone who is better and that is ok.” We teach them it is easy to win but how do we act when we lose? What do we do when someone else gets the promotion, or the account, or the new car? Do we congratulate them but harbor bitter feelings inside thinking it should have been us? How do we act when we win and our friend is the one who lost? Are we humble?

I don’t have the answers, but I want to be that humble woman. I want to be a humble wife. I want to be a humble mom. I want to be a humble friend. You know the one I am talking about, she is meek, always thinks of others higher than herself. She loves so well because she is loved by Jesus, she knows she is nothing without Christ. The woman who knows she is weak, and knows weak is good because when we are weak He is strong. The woman everyone wants to be around because she is filled with Jesus. When your around her you feel close to Jesus. When she hugs you it feels like Jesus himself reached out and wrapped His arms around you. The woman who doesn’t have all the answers. The woman who doesn’t have the perfect marriage, perfect kids, and the perfect house. She might even have wrinkles, gray hairs poking up from her ponytail, and an occasional whisker on her chin….you know you have them!! She is beautiful, caring and sweet. She loves you like you’re the best friend ever. She smiles at you like a proud mother and forgives you when you mess up. She is humble…

I want to be that woman….Lord please help me to be humble. God open my eyes to my sin. Search my heart every hidden area and transform me into your likeness. Get rid of my pride and jealousy and bitterness. Help me to think of myself with sober judgment. Decrease me in me and increase you in me. In Jesus name amen.

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